Do you ever want to say ‘to heck with it’ and just walk away from things? Life can be hard and discouraging. You know what you want, but there’s that wall in the way. The end goal is there, but you can’t work out how to get around/through/past the obstacles in the way? You can’t even really tell what the obstacles are at times. There’s a vague name that groups a whole lot of stuff together and you can’t sort it out to even begin to find a solution. Or someone offers advice that you know you can’t take.
I’ve been sitting at my desk in the study, browsing through Pinterest, looking for an answer to a question I can’t think of.
Yep, I’m trying to write. I can feel the urge to write—sort of—and I know what I can write, but it’s just not coming. Okay, let’s be honest. I could make myself write. I’ve done it before, more times than I can remember. Tonight? I opened the file, re-read the last few paragraphs, thought about what could happen next, and then stared at the screen for ten minutes before shutting it down and opening Pinterest.
I want to write, but not at the moment. I could make myself…and round I go again!
My characters are waiting for me to get on with it and tell their story. The characters in the next book are starting to put ideas in my head. And yet here I am writing about not writing, instead of writing. I procrastinate, thinking about how easy it would be to churn out the books if I was a full-time writer. Wondering how I could possibly find a way to do that. Ponder other income sources that would enable me to quit full-time work and become a writer with a side-business. Not that I would do that, because I have too many responsibilities and, quite frankly, the thought of giving up my nice, secure job terrifies me.
Back to square one. And I still haven’t added a word to the story I’m working on.
Ever wondered what it can be like to write?
Don’t get me wrong—I love writing. I love the incredible feeling I get from creating. But like everything else, there are ups and downs. That’s reality. And there’s always tomorrow. I will, in the end, get myself going. I always do. In the meantime, I will to ignore the frustration and cut myself a little more slack.
Time to check out YouTube.
Post script: Since writing this post there has been progress on the story. Not a whole lot, but it's happening.
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